Tujuan atau sarana? Sarana atau tujuan?

Ketika ditanyai, cita-citanya seorang teman menjawab: dokter! Lalu saya lanjut bertanya, kalo udah jadi dokter, trus ngapain? Jawabnya: um… ya… menikmati hidup, menikmati kesuksesan.

Hal itu tidak salah. Tetapi jawaban pertama teman saya itu salah. Karena setelah ditanyai lebih lanjut, jawaban akhirnya bukan lagi dokter, tetapi menikmati hidup, sukses. Jadi, cita-citanya, impiannya, keinginannya sebenarnya adalah kesuksesan, hidup tenang. Bukan dokter. Dokter hanyalah sarana untuknya meraih kesuksesan itu.

Dokter, tujuan atau sarana?

Seorang kenalan, ia seorang pekerja keras. Motivasi sejak kecil terus dipegangnya, yaitu ingin rumah besar. Akhirnya, bisnisnya sukses, lancar. Dalam satu periode, bermiliaran Rupiah bisa ia dapatkan. Tetapi keluarganya retak. Anaknya terlantar. Kondisi tubuhnya mudah sakit. Walaupun kaya, ia tidak pernah mau membeli makanan yang enak-enak, katanya mahal. Gaya berpakaiannya pun tidak nampak seperti orang berduit. Anaknya dibiarkan makan bersama para pegawai makan makanan warteg.

Ia begitu giat mengusahakan saldo di rekening bank terus meningkat. Sampai-sampai ia mengorbankan keinginan pribadinya ataupun keinginan anaknya untuk sedikit saja menikmati hidup. Kerja keras tidak salah, tetapi untuk apa kita kerja keras? Yaitu supaya kita bisa hidup berkecukupan, dapat membeli atau menikmati apa yang kita inginkan, dapat membantu orang yang berkekurangan, memiliki uang tabungan bila terjadi sesuatu hal buruk. Dan akhirnya hidup tenang, tanpa perlu pusing berpikir besok makan apa, gimana cara bayar cicilan rumah, tagihan listrik, uang sekolah anak. Karena kita memiliki cukup uang untuk membayar semua kebutuhan hidup kita. Begitu bukan?

Uang, tujuan atau sarana?

Seorang teman bercerita, ia kehilangan handphone. Lalu ia berdoa, Tuhan, aku rela handphone itu hilang, semoga orang yang mengambilnya benar-benar membutuhkan. Tapi Tuhan, aku butuh handphone. Aku suka banget dengan handphone seri itu, Tuhan. Beberapa hari kemudian, temannya menawarkan hp second yang ia inginkan tersebut dengan harga sekian. Tetapi ia hanya punya setengah dari harga itu. Ia berdoa lagi, Tuhan, uang ku tidak cukup, aku butuh 750rb lagi. Tak lama, ada tawaran job yang entah darimana asalnya dan tepat membayarnya sejumlah 750rb. Ia pun berdoa lagi, Tuhan, Engkau baik banget deh, Kau cukupkan semua kebutuhanku.

Banyak orang berpikir bahwa Tuhan itu seperti jin milik Aladin yang mampu memberikan semua kebutuhannya atau seperti doraemon yang selalu mampu mengeluarkan alat-alat yang dibutuhkan nobita. Tetapi temanku ini lanjut berkata, Tuhan, aku tuh pengen banget hp model itu, karena aku ga pernah punya hp yang bisa program Alkitab. Kalau pake hp itu, aku kan bisa membawa-bawa FirmanMu dan membacanya dimanapun dan kapanpun.Kerinduan hatinya adalah Tuhan, SabdaNya, FirmanNya yang mana bisa ia peroleh lewat bantuan teknologi yaitu handphone.

Handphone, tujuan atau sarana?

Tuhan mengabulkan permintaannya karena Ia meminta bukan untuk keinginan matanya, keinginan tangannya, keinginan egonya, tetapi untuk kerinduan jiwanya, untuk tujuan panggilan hidupnya yaitu keselamatan jiwanya.

“Atau kamu berdoa juga, tetapi kamu tidak menerima apa-apa, karena kamu salah berdoa, sebab yang kamu minta itu hendak kamu habiskan untuk memuaskan hawa nafsumu.” Yakobus 4:3

Tuhan, tujuan atau sarana?

m0n

JCLU

My first visit to Emergency Room-UGD-unit gawat darurat RS. Husada

In order to fulfill my curiousness how it feels to be a doctor, finally, one of my dreams, to visit the emergency room was come true.

Here the background story…

On Easter, the happiest day, accident happened to my cousin’s family. My cousin wanted to refill their mineral water with replacing the new gallon of water. One of their mistake, they put the water dispenser on the table, so that to replace the gallon, they need to step up on chair and lift the heavy gallon.

My cousin, around 30 something woman, with her braveness and her carelessness, replace the gallon by herself. She always does this; this is not the first time for her. But here is the weakness of human, we can’t predict or decide what will happen next.

On this happy day, she replaced the gallon and she fell down from the chair. The chair was broken into two, and also the water gallon, so water overflew all over the house. And my cousin, fell down and her head knock the floor.

But this story doesn’t end up like this. Suddenly, her husband went downstairs after hearing her horrifying yell (I believe it’s horrifying!). And without knowing that water overflew his house, he ran and brak!! He, my cousin’s husband also fell down, unluckily, the pieces of the broken chair stabbed his leg. It’s on the same position with Jesus’ wound on His leg, really. And the gallon made his back, I mean, part of body near his back and near armpit scared. So, both of them lying on the floor, yelling and crying, with the blood flew and mixed with the water, overflew their house. What a bloody Easter!

Then, thanks God, my grandma came. Thanks God also my grandma doesn’t have heart attack. My grandma came and shocked with the bloody house. And then, a phone call rang to my house, my mom and dad went there quickly and helped them.

The entire true story above happened around 9 o’clock. And then, their little girl just came home after having her Easter Mass at church with her grandma (my aunty) and her baby-sitter. All were shocked. Unfortunately, I wasn’t there to see the bloody house.

After having the traditional help like ‘pijet-pijet’ and some ‘balsem’, my cousin’s husband still couldn’t stand or walk well. Until my uncle came and brought them to the hospital.

UGD, here m0nica comes!

What? Hospital. I beg my mom to let me go to accompany them to the hospital. So, here I came to the Emergency Room of Husada hospital, hua hua hua…!!!

With hard step, my cousin’s husband laid on the bed in UGD room. I accompanied him all along the occasion I was there. I am not too close to him, but I just curious for what the doctors would do.

I look around the UGD, it’s not as terrible as I thought before. There was not any emergency situation at all. Quiet and calm. Weird! But suddenly, there’s a man, I mean ‘abang-abang’ who got traffic accident came lying on bed with bloody leg, yup bloody scenery.

I saw the doctor sewed him

And the terrific scenery didn’t end up just like that. My cousin’s husband leg was going to be sewed, dijahit. And my eyes still opened when the doctor and nurse ‘sewed’ him, haha!

First, he was given the painkilling injection until he didn’t feel hurt. And the doctor started sewing him. I opened my eyes widely. No fear at all.

Here the photos. I took it just for kenang-kenangan my first visit to UGD.

Mighty God, powerless man

After Rontgen check, he’s ok, no serious damage in his bone. But you know what, just in 2 hours, he spent almost 700.000 Rupiah. And more terrible, I saw his face, depressed, hopeless. Well, a healthy man, just in 10 minutes could turn into a powerless man and lying hopelessly on the Emergency Room. That’s one of the weaknesses of human.

And that’s also the mighty of God, not more than 10 minutes, God can let you to be powerless.

From this accident, my family and I were warned to be more careful and surrender to God, because we really powerless and He’s the only mighty. Amen.

That’s my first experience to visit UGD. I love hospital atmosphere. Sometimes I thought I wanted to be a doctor, but I still don’t know, still looking for the right path.

(I’m still looking for God’s clue for my future, doctor or programmer, biology and chemistry or IT and physics, Medicine Faculty of UI or Computer Science of NTU, hospital or Microsoft. Haha… )

Psalms 8: 4-6

Jika aku melihat langit-Mu, buatan jari-Mu, bulan dan bintang-bintang yang Kautempatkan:
apakah manusia, sehingga Engkau mengingatnya?
Apakah anak manusia, sehingga Engkau mengindahkannya?
Namun Engkau telah membuatnya hampir sama seperti Allah,
dan telah memahkotainya dengan kemuliaan dan hormat.