Hot… Hot… So Hot…

My final test has finished. From day to a day, I felt tbhat there’s a feeling that always be around me, it’s the hot feeling.

Here the stories:

Wednesday, 14 May 2008, I went for a Penance after the morning mass. Father Kristo gave it. In the confession box, when I said my sins, I felt a warm feeling flowing from my head to my neck. And as I said my sins more, I became warmer, hotter. So, because I felt it was too hot, I decided to end talking my sin there, I was not concentrate to what I will say, It was really hot!

And when Father Kristo talked for absolution, it was still hot. So, I finished my Penance. I prayed, I thanked God for the amnesty, and the hot feeling stop. Then, I went out from the church, going home, I met Father Kristo, and I asked him whether he felt the hot feeling too. You know what he said? He said had he had turned on the air conditioner inside! Aarrgh!

Next days, during the final test. I sat in a room which has windows facing outside the school and sunlight can enter the room from the window. And I sat right in front of the window! The sunlight stroke me around 8 am until 9 am, and I was burnt there! I was hot. I remember the hot feeling I had in the confession box and I said to God, hope this sun stroke is a way that showed You blessed me in my final test, haha!

And on a day during the final test, the light out. So, it absolutely felt hot, sweat. I remember again the confession experience. And during the days, as the effect of global warming, everybody felt hot. Haha!

In the Old Testament, hot always represents an angry heart. In New Testament, hot or fire represents Holy Spirit. But in baking, hot means fresh.

Sometimes we read, ‘fresh from oven’ label on the bread, and we can believe that it’s fresh from oven with touching it and feel that it’s hot. Hot represents ‘new’ here. So, I believe, the hot feeling in my Penance is a symbol that God renewed me as fresh baked spirit to face the final test with Holy Spirit’ guide. Amen!

I truly believe that this semester’s final test is the most blessed one, with the anointing of Holy Spirit, I believe, I’ll get good enough score, as a tiny worship for Him.

Thanks God

Team's Retreat

Saturday-Sunday, 19-20 April 2008

Though I had to follow the retreat not from the beginning, I got some confirmation how I must serve my Lord.

Honestly, I thought that this retreat must be a great one, all of my serving friends in Prayer Meeting attended it and they all seemed so happy when I arrived there.

So, I try to ask mercy to God for giving me that happiness I had missed. So, I tried to recall why I wanted to serve Him (because that what I thought my other friends got from the previous session I had missed).

So, I recalled, recalled, and recalled, I arrived to a Chapel on the fourth floor in SMA Budi Mulia building, on the last prayer meeting I had in my junior high school.

It was the last meeting, I gathered with my non-Catholic friends in the prayer group, which we had prayed together for 3 years. I was really sad, so sad, that it was the last because I would graduated from the junior high and would move to a new school, which I dreamt since I was in the kindergarten.

I prayed, I wrestled in prayer to God, “God, plis, don’t let this be the last, I don’t want my relation with You ended here. Please send a teacher who will gathered us to pray in my senior high school, please make a group to pray together like this in my senior high school. I don’t want this end here, I don’t want this stop just like this, I want to love You till I’m old, I want to love You till my hair turned white.”

The last sentence was come from the core of my heart. Really. So, go back to the retreat. I remember those sentences, I knew why I was there on that day. I knew.

And through the sessions, I knew more how to serve Him well, I knew the right way and what will happen to me if I serve Him. It’s not easy to serve Him, it need struggle, wew!

And on the night, I got a prophecy from Ika. She said that God said to me to be more patient about my parents and the most shocking is she said that, “Tuhan ingin memakai kamu dengan luar biasa.”

Well, I wanted to laugh but I also believed He will. I had prayed for that. I had prayed since I was in my junior high school that I will not be His ordinary child, but I want to love Him and to be His extra-ordinary child.

Then, I asked for the record from the sessions I left. And I like the session which talked about the saints. Saint… that’s what I wanna be! All saints, didn’t ask for the Holy Spirit’s Gifts, they asked for mercy of God that they could be less and god became larger in them. A scripture-based prayer, haha… because I want to be a saint, I will try those! So, lately, I just asked for humbleness in my heart. Hehe..

Then, I tried the Holy Spirit Gift which often given and needed in a Prayer Meeting, a gift of speaking God’s message, that’s what Paul said for the Corinthians. We divided into groups, we prayed for one of the friends, we took turns.

For some message I got, my friends said it was true, well, halleluiah, thanks God. One thing, I learnt, to hear God’s message for a friend, doesn’t depend on what you feel (I felt so dry and tired and lonely not in the full charge), it depends on God’s mercy, just said what you got or you’ll never know whether it’s true or not.

Well, those just a little experience I got in the team’s retreat .

Thanks God for all.

My first visit to Emergency Room-UGD-unit gawat darurat RS. Husada

In order to fulfill my curiousness how it feels to be a doctor, finally, one of my dreams, to visit the emergency room was come true.

Here the background story…

On Easter, the happiest day, accident happened to my cousin’s family. My cousin wanted to refill their mineral water with replacing the new gallon of water. One of their mistake, they put the water dispenser on the table, so that to replace the gallon, they need to step up on chair and lift the heavy gallon.

My cousin, around 30 something woman, with her braveness and her carelessness, replace the gallon by herself. She always does this; this is not the first time for her. But here is the weakness of human, we can’t predict or decide what will happen next.

On this happy day, she replaced the gallon and she fell down from the chair. The chair was broken into two, and also the water gallon, so water overflew all over the house. And my cousin, fell down and her head knock the floor.

But this story doesn’t end up like this. Suddenly, her husband went downstairs after hearing her horrifying yell (I believe it’s horrifying!). And without knowing that water overflew his house, he ran and brak!! He, my cousin’s husband also fell down, unluckily, the pieces of the broken chair stabbed his leg. It’s on the same position with Jesus’ wound on His leg, really. And the gallon made his back, I mean, part of body near his back and near armpit scared. So, both of them lying on the floor, yelling and crying, with the blood flew and mixed with the water, overflew their house. What a bloody Easter!

Then, thanks God, my grandma came. Thanks God also my grandma doesn’t have heart attack. My grandma came and shocked with the bloody house. And then, a phone call rang to my house, my mom and dad went there quickly and helped them.

The entire true story above happened around 9 o’clock. And then, their little girl just came home after having her Easter Mass at church with her grandma (my aunty) and her baby-sitter. All were shocked. Unfortunately, I wasn’t there to see the bloody house.

After having the traditional help like ‘pijet-pijet’ and some ‘balsem’, my cousin’s husband still couldn’t stand or walk well. Until my uncle came and brought them to the hospital.

UGD, here m0nica comes!

What? Hospital. I beg my mom to let me go to accompany them to the hospital. So, here I came to the Emergency Room of Husada hospital, hua hua hua…!!!

With hard step, my cousin’s husband laid on the bed in UGD room. I accompanied him all along the occasion I was there. I am not too close to him, but I just curious for what the doctors would do.

I look around the UGD, it’s not as terrible as I thought before. There was not any emergency situation at all. Quiet and calm. Weird! But suddenly, there’s a man, I mean ‘abang-abang’ who got traffic accident came lying on bed with bloody leg, yup bloody scenery.

I saw the doctor sewed him

And the terrific scenery didn’t end up just like that. My cousin’s husband leg was going to be sewed, dijahit. And my eyes still opened when the doctor and nurse ‘sewed’ him, haha!

First, he was given the painkilling injection until he didn’t feel hurt. And the doctor started sewing him. I opened my eyes widely. No fear at all.

Here the photos. I took it just for kenang-kenangan my first visit to UGD.

Mighty God, powerless man

After Rontgen check, he’s ok, no serious damage in his bone. But you know what, just in 2 hours, he spent almost 700.000 Rupiah. And more terrible, I saw his face, depressed, hopeless. Well, a healthy man, just in 10 minutes could turn into a powerless man and lying hopelessly on the Emergency Room. That’s one of the weaknesses of human.

And that’s also the mighty of God, not more than 10 minutes, God can let you to be powerless.

From this accident, my family and I were warned to be more careful and surrender to God, because we really powerless and He’s the only mighty. Amen.

That’s my first experience to visit UGD. I love hospital atmosphere. Sometimes I thought I wanted to be a doctor, but I still don’t know, still looking for the right path.

(I’m still looking for God’s clue for my future, doctor or programmer, biology and chemistry or IT and physics, Medicine Faculty of UI or Computer Science of NTU, hospital or Microsoft. Haha… )

Psalms 8: 4-6

Jika aku melihat langit-Mu, buatan jari-Mu, bulan dan bintang-bintang yang Kautempatkan:
apakah manusia, sehingga Engkau mengingatnya?
Apakah anak manusia, sehingga Engkau mengindahkannya?
Namun Engkau telah membuatnya hampir sama seperti Allah,
dan telah memahkotainya dengan kemuliaan dan hormat.

Palm Sunday 2008

I have mass in the morning brought by 3 priests as celebrant. I always love Palm Sunday.

Masses which I love in Easter are Palm Sunday and Easter Mass with children. In those Mass, we’ll feel so happy, the atmosphere set are joyful actually.

Along the Holy Week especially, the Holy Days, I will try to write my feelings so next year or couple of years later, I still can memorize it again, haha. And post it in my blog, coz I have a blog, not in my smart laptop only.

Today, I love the perarakan masuk which we wave the palm and sing loudly only in the refrain, “Yeruuu.. salemm.. yeruu… salem…”, well, most of us only can sing in the refrain, and I proud to the part of those who only can sing the refrain, haha.

And also when the priests stain the Holy Water to our palms, all people love to bath, especially in church, so that when we got stained with the Holy Water, a bit of smile we will express.

And in some Masses in Holy Days, we are honored to take part in the readings of the gospel, wow. I will say ‘wow’, we take part in reading the Gospel, that’s great for me. Honoring the Liturgy of Words.

And we really take our part in His Crucifixion, we shout ‘Crucify Him… Crucify Him’, yang artinya, “Salibkan Dia… Salibkan Dia…”, yes, people who crucify Him are us, including me as the biggest sinner.

Well, that’s just a bit of the happiness opening the Holy Week, which I hope this week I could be a holy sinner, haha… let’s see and walk through these days in Holy Week faithfully to God. Amen. +

#01 PD Santa Ursula

Saturday, 15 March 2008

PD Santa Ursula

Finally, after long time, He made what I had dreamt since I enrolled myself to this school; to have a prayer community at my new senior high school comes true.

Mission has just began, on Thursday, 13 March 2008, Sr. Moekti, Devina_Ponchu, Elle, Yanita, Hanny, Herin, Hana, Yemima, VanYo, and me, ten people, gathered at the third floor hall to begin our Persekutuan Doa, wow. (Unfortunately, we forgot to take a photo.)

Technically, it was a bit a mess, but overall, great. We prayed, sang 2 songs (Terima Kasih Tuhan & Bapa yang Kekal), a little game (Apa kabar? Kita bergembira…), and read His Word. And Sister Moekti shared about her calling as a Nun, so did the other friends told about God’s Works in their life.

In the first meeting, I really could feel the joyful atmosphere. So, every time I remember the first PD at my skul, I was happy to think about it.

I really can feel that Sister was also so excited, through her shares and ideas. Deep inside, I know that she doesn’t want the students in this school to be good in academic lesson only, but also spiritually connected with God.

Sister Moekti was very happy so did the others. And through the questioner I gave, 66.67% want to have this PD twice a week.

Noooo.

At first, I felt tired doing this actually, coz I depended on my own power, not God’s power. And I thought that the PD will only gather once a month just for a few students. Jesus, I knew that I couldn’t do it by myself. All are Your works. It’s Your desire to love your children in this school more and more.

And I still don’t know how it will last, but let God do the rest, coz if He wants, it will be. I’m just doing what He said and whatever He said, I want to be ready to do all His commandments.

All, I surrender to You, coz all are Yours. Amen

Waktu sakit and my #5 Way of Cross...

(delayed)

Friday, 7 March 2008

Oooh, daku sakit tuday! Oooh, menderita.

Trus, kamu tau ga, hari ini hari apa?

Hari ini, hari Jumat!

Maka, dengan sakitnya daku, daku batal pantang daging dan puasa. Coz I know that my body need protein from meat.

Jumat Pertama & Libur mujizat yang hancur

Trus, yang paling parah, hari ini bukan Jumat biasa, hari ini, JUMAT PERTAMA bulan Maret, di masa Prapaskah pula!

So, you know what I have missed today? I missed Jalan Salib, Way of Cross, and ADORATION… noooooooooooooo……….!!!!! Super duper terrible…

Hari ini, hari libur mujizat pula, dan libur mujizatku, hanccuuurrrRRz! (di SanUr, libur=mujizat, kata ci Ika, mujizat kuadrat), jadi bisa lebih menghargai satu hari libur, ya, yes, i did it, i can feel it...

Back to God…

Ooooh, Tuhan menghendakimu untuk berristirahat, Monica. Entah apa rencanaNya?

Doa, Firman, komunitas, pelayananku, berjalan normal kog menurutku. But, over all, thanks God!

Ya, mungkin daku sudah terlalu banyak kegiatan fokusku, yaitu: sekolah, PD di skul, PD St. Alfonsus, dan menjadi katekis bagi m0mmy ku. 4 bidang yang kulayani, membuat beban hidup ini terasa begitu banyak. But, God is still with me.

Our Suffering is not as much as what our Lord had done

Tadi, I dikerok by m0m, mungkin masuk angin. You know, di kerok itu, sakitnya RuarR biasa…! And ditengah-tengah kesakitan itu, daku mengambil my phone dan segera membuka image, mencari gambar Jesus yang sedang mao di salib, maka, daku terdiam melihat gambar itu, bahwa apa yang daku rasakan selama dikerok itu sungguh tiada bandingnya, ga ada apa-apanya disbanding satu saja Luka Yesus.

My computerize life, game programmer???

Tentu saja daku ga mao begini, sakit mulu. Pengen sembuh dan besok ke skul. Coz I mao ambil CD The Sims yang ingin ku pinjam dari temanku, blakangan ini, daku seneng maen games. Jadi pengen jadi ‘game progremmer’ nih. Oh ya, I also planned to create a Bible program and one day, I hope that I can make a game rohani. Sounds great!

But, on this ‘sicky’ day, not too bad actually. Dalam keadaan begini (suhu tubuh 37.7° dan denyut nadi ±100/ menit_jam 7 pm= ngukur sendiri manual, agak bakat dan punya sedikit tampang jadi dokter, haha), daku bisa membuat poster untuk outreach PDKM. Yang sperti ini belum pernah ku buat

Menurutku, agak keren, tapi coloringnya masih agak kurang indah. Let’s get on Sunday and have my friends’ comments about it.

My #5 Way of Cross at home

Oh ya, tadi, daku doa Jalan Salib di rumah, with my m0m, great! Haha. I’m kind of people who hard to forget very special moment like this! I missed my #5 Way of Cross! In the beginning of Lent, I promise to myself that I will attend all the Way of Cross prayer at church, like what I did last year, full 7 W.O.C.s.

Well, memang, dalam 4 WoC sebelumnya, daku selalu datang tidak dengan keadaan sehat, dan akhirnya, soldier Tuhan ini, tumbang di minggu yang ke 5, ya, diizinkan Tuhan terjadi, maka terjadilah demikian…

Well, there’s something funny during the WoC at home with my m0m. in the perhentian X, there’re word: ‘martabat’, but my m0m read it: ‘martabak’, hahahahaha!!! I laughed spontaneously in prayer. Oh, I feel sorry, I regret it.

You know, what, I set my room like in the church, I put my blanket on the floor for us to kneel and I put my study table facing the Cross. Well, that’s great

My prayer

Lord, plis heal me, I wanna go to the church tomorrow, I wanna join my frens at syafaat next Sunday, I wanna give comments to Julia’s job as WL, I wanna go to school tomorrow, I wanna study programming and flash.

Heal me oh, Lord...

I really sad that I have to spend this Friday, just lying on my bed like this. I didn’t go to Your Church. (but thanks God, I didn’t go to church tadi, becoz after the WoC prayer at home, I sick again. If I went to church, my dad would have coet2 on me more, hoho, thanks God)

Amen

JCLU

Photo-photo

Dear all,

here are some photos of PD team:

retreat SHB August 2007

Team PD lama
(daku ga termasuk sih...)

Kunjungan ke panti asuhan Pondok Damai
(ternyata Panti Asuhan Ursulin, ada SERVIAM nya, haha)

masih banyak
kalo di upload smua
ga akan cukup menampung
ke-narcis-an manusia

JCLU

Joy of Christmas(Tugas Bina Iman ku....)

Pengalaman menarikku selama liburan akhir tahun 2007 dan liburan awal tahun yang singkat

Joy of Christmas

Natal sudah berakhir, tapi rasanya saya belum mau beranjak dari pesta Natal. Ada suatu kegembiraan yang pasti dianugerahkan Bayi Kudus pada hari itu. Salah satu kegiatan menarik saat liburan yaitu hari-hari sekitar Natal.

Tanggal 24 Desember 2007, tidak seperti natal sebelumnya. Ini Natal terbaik selama ini. Sebenarnya tidak indah-indah amat, tapi setidaknya, sesuatu yang berbeda yang saya lakukan. Acara malam Natal, tentu saja Perayaan Ekaristi yang amat saya sukai dan acara bersama teman-teman PDKM.

Saya mengikuti Misa Natal pertama di Paroki saya, Paroki Santo Alfonsus Rodriguez, Pademangan, dimulai pukul 18.00. Tahun ini saya pergi bersama Mama saya. Kalau tahun-tahun lalu mungkin pergi bersama teman-teman atau bahkan sendiri. Mama belum Katolik, tapi lebih dari setengah tahun belakangan ini, saya ajak ke Gereja, ikut misa, dan sekarang sedang mendaftar untuk katekumen periode Paskah 2009, thanks God. Saya pergi pukul 17.30, setibanya di gereja, tempat sudah penuh, singkat cerita, dengan penuh perjuangan, Mama dan saya duduk dibawah tenda tambahan, dikursi plastik. Walau tidak nyaman, banyak nyamuk dan berisik, saya yakin tempat itu jauh jauh lebih baik daripada tempat Yesus lahir dulu.

Singkat cerita, Perayaan Ekaristi pun dimulai. Misa dipimpin ketiga Pastor yang ada di Paroki saya. Homilinya diisi oleh Romo Kristophorus Bala,SVD., pembimbing PDKM kami yang tercinta, yang sudah sangat amat akrab dengan kami, dan sudah sering kami iseng-in. Homilinya? Saya lupa. Yang pasti bagus. Setelah Misa, ada ritual yang biasa saya lakukan, yaitu mencari teman-teman dan mampir dan mengucapkan salam singkat yang manis untuk Bunda Maria. Kemudian saya pulang dan menanti waktu untuk acara selanjutnya.

Yang membuat malam Natal ini berbeda dari sebelumnya adalah acara malam Natal bersama teman-teman tim PDKM. Beberapa hari yang lalu tim PD ini baru saja dilantik, dan saya termasuk didalamnya. Saya masih tidak tahu benar apa rasanya ambil bagian dalam pelayanan sesungguhnya untuk Tuhan, tapi mungkin ini salah satu cara untuk menyenangkanNya.

Kami berkumpul pukul 22.00 di markas besar tim PD, atau yang lebih sederhananya disebut rumah salah seorang teman yang sering dijadikan tempat berkumpul. Teman-teman lain sudah mempersiapkan makanan, ada Pizza Hut, bakmi Ayung depan gereja (langganan kami bersama), serta koktail. Sebelum acara makan-makan, kami berdoa syafaat dulu dan dilanjutkan dengan sharing atau pengajaran dari Ketua PD. Doa syafaatnya seperti biasa, ala Karismatik, pujian dan penyembahan, serta doa-doa permohonan, dipimpin oleh ketua PD kami. Malam itu saya merasakan cinta Tuhan yang mendalam dan makna Natal itu sendiri, yaitu kelahiran dan kehadiranNya didalam hati kita.

Sebelum sesi makan-makan, ketua PD sharing dulu. Sharingnya cukup panjang sehingga tidak mungkin saya tulis di sini, tetapi intinya ‘Make Your Life Meaningful’. Carilah tempat dan pekerjaan dimana hidupmu bisa berarti untuk orang lain dengan menggunakan apa yang Tuhan berikan padamu. Dan yang ditunggu-tunggu, adalah sesi tukar kado. Saya membawa kado sebuah salib untuk diletakkan dimeja yang sudah dibungkus amat rapi dan ‘vakum’ oleh Papa saya. Berlapis-lapis dan menimbulkan banyak sampah saat dibuka kembali. Semua orang penasaran kado dari siapa itu, kurang kerjaan sekali, tapi saya diam. Saya menerima kado sebuah salib juga, entah dari siapa.

Dan setelah foto-foto dan main-main sebentar, pada pukul 01.30 tengah malam, saya pulang duluan. Papa sudah menjemput. Saya adalah yang termuda diantara mereka, hanya saya yang masih bersekolah, yang lain sudah kuliah dan kerja, jadi mereka sudah maklum kalau saya harus segera pulang. Mereka itu sudah seperti kakak-kakak saya yang baik. Dalam tim ini, saya seperti Rasul Yohanes yang paling muda, tetapi paling dikasihi Yesus, haha!

Acara malam Natal ini memulai kegembiraan Natal yang penuh sukacita dan kegembiraan Natal ini menghapus semua kesedihan sebelumnya yang disebabkan oleh berbagai pergumulan hidup dan nilai raport yang kurang memuaskan. Setelah pulang, saya bersiap-siap tidur, dan tak lupa berdoa. Lalu saya hanya tidur kurang lebih 4 jam.

Saya dibangunkan oleh malaikat pelindung saya dan alarm handphone saya sekitar jam 6. Saya segera bersiap-siap karena saya ingin ikut misa anak-anak lagi jam 7.30 pagi keesokkan harinya. Pergi sendiri tentunya, teman-teman PD tak terlihat pagi itu. Berdasarkan pengalaman kemarin malam, saya datang ke gereja jam 7 kurang. Ternyata gereja masih sepi. Saya rela bangun pagi lagi hanya untuk mengikuti misa anak-anak. Saya amat menyukai misa anak-anak, karena dulu, saat saya masih kecil saya tidak pernah ikut misa anak-anak. Saya dibaptis kelas 2 SMP. Dan dalam misa anak-anak biasanya pasti ada sesuatu yang menarik dan mengejutkan. Dan bukankah Yesus sendiri mengajarkan untuk datang kepada-Nya seperti anak-anak? Maka kadang-kadang kita perlu mengamat-amati seperti apa anak kecil itu.

Setelah misa selama 3 jam yang dipenuhi berisik oleh keributan mulut anak-anak yang bawel, saya melakukan ritual saya. Dan memang tidak ada teman-teman yang hadir pagi itu. Tapi ada Romo Kristo yang bisa disalami dan beberapa guru Bina Iman Anak yang saya kenal. Saya bergabung dengan mereka dan mengucapkan ‘Merry Christmas’ dan ternyata ada sesi foto-foto singkat. Seorang teman, guru Bina Iman Anak memperkenalkan saya kepada seorang teman lain yang katanya mukanya agak mirip dengan saya. Padahal menurut saya tidak. Bahkan Romo pun ikut-ikutan membanding-bandingkan saya dengan anak yang mirip dengan saya itu. Dan saya ditangkap untuk berfoto-foto dengan mereka. Aneh, tidak disangka, tapi seru juga, ya seru kalau diingat-ingat, hahaha!

Dan karena tidak ada kerjaan yang berarti, untuk mengisi Natal, saya pergi ke gereja lagi pada sore harinya. Sesuai pengalaman kemarin sore, tempat duduk gereja yang cepat penuh, maka saya berencana datang 1.5 jam sebelum misa dimulai. Cuaca sudah agak mendung. Saya pergi bersama Mama dengan berjalan kaki, karena Gereja Santo Alfonsus itu tidak jauh dari rumah saya. Saya lebih senang jalan kaki ke gereja. Sejak awal, Mama sudah bilang kalau tidak perlu pagi-pagi pergi ke gereja, tapi saya tidak terlalu peduli. Maka sampailah kami di gereja tercinta, dan terkejutlah kami, dan saya menjadi sedikit atau mungkin sangat malu dalam hati. Karena gedung gereja masih tutup! (gubraks, hahaha…!) Hanya ada satpam dan katanya bahkan koster gereja pun belum datang, haha. Maka kami pulang lagi. Lalu setengah jam sebelum Misa, saya kembali ke gereja dengan cuaca yang sudah turun hujan deras sehingga harus naik becak. Dan pada malam itu, gereja sepi sekali, seperti misa pagi harian. Apa yang terjadi? Mengapa orang-orang malah tidak ke gereja pada hari Natal? Saya kira itu akan menjadi perayaan paling sukacita, tapi kebanyakkan orang memiliki pikiran yang berbeda dari saya. Saya sedih melihat gereja yang sepi pada hari Natal, dan ramai di mal . Saya tidak tahu apa yang Bayi Kudus rasakan dengan situasi itu. Saya sampai bertanya-tanya ke beberapa teman apa ada yang salah dengan saya yang berpikiran demikian? Orang-orang hanya ‘ikut-ikutan’ meramaikan malam Natal, dan mereka pikir itu sudah berakhir, huh! Tidak bagi saya.

Dalam kegembiraan Natal, saya menanti Tahun baru, hari-hari menuju tahun baru hanya diisi dengan misa pagi yang menyenangkan. Dan sambil membuat resolusi-resolusi dan refleksi dan revolusi. Bagi saya tahun 2008 adalah tahun kebangkitan, Bangkit! Ya, itu yang Tuhan dan saya inginkan. Tidak hanya saya yang ingin lebih maju dan lebih baik ditahun depan, Tuhan juga ingin saya bangkit. Dengan kegembiraan Natal, Ia menghibur saya dengan penuh sukacita dengan mengingatkan kembali akan Kelahiran Penebus.

Begitulah pengalaman menarik yang dapat saya ceritakan untuk tugas Bina Iman. Semoga Tuhan menjamah dan memberkati Frater yang membaca sehingga dapat memberi tugas ini nilai yang baik, karena begitulah keinginan Tuhan yang ingin melihat anak-anakNya senang dengan mendapat nilai bagus, haha! Tak lupa, dalam kesempatan Natal dan Tahun Baru ini, saya dan mewakili teman-teman IPA 2, mengucapkan terima kasih dan maaf atas semua kesalahan yang menyakiti hati Frater.

‘Janganlah hendaknya kerajinanmu kendor, biarlah rohmu menyala-nyala dan layanilah Tuhan.’, Roma 12:11.

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year 2008,

JC LU,

m0nJC,

diselesaikan pada 130108,

Pada Pesta Pembaptisan Tuhan Yesus.

Another side of me...

Don't be afraid.....
this just another 'crazy' side of me..

peace
JCLU

==>a bit stress

==>at Karmel

H.U.M.B.L.E. by St. Josemaria Escriva (Opus Dei Founder)

17 BUKTI AKAN KURANGNYA KERENDAHAN HATI
oleh St. Josemaria Escriva


1. Berpikir bahwa apa yang dikatakan atau dilakukan lebih baik dari apa yang dikatakan atau dilakukan orang lain.
2. Selalu ingin menuruti kemauan sendiri.
3. Berdebat dengan keras kepala dan dengan sikap yang kurang baik tanpa peduli benar atau salah.
4. Menyatakan pendapat ketika tidak diminta.
5. Memandang rendah pendapat orang lain.
6. Tidak menganggap bakat-bakat serta kemampuan diri sebagai pinjaman dari Tuhan.
7. Tidak menyadari bahwa diri sendiri tidak layak atas segala penghargaan dan pujian, bahkan tidak atas bumi tempatnya berpijak dan atas barang-barang yang dimiliki.
8. Membicarakan diri sendiri sebagai contoh dalam percakapan-percakapan.
9. Berbicara buruk tentang diri sendiri sehingga orang lain kagum atau menyanggah dengan pujian.
10. Membela diri apabila ditegur.
11. Menyembunyikan kesalahan-kesalahan yang memalukan dari pembimbing rohani, sehingga kesan baiknya terhadapmu tidak berkurang.
12. Senang menerima pujian dan penghargaan.
13. Sedih karena orang lain lebih dihargai.
14. Menolak melakukan pekerjaan-pekerjaan remeh.
15. Berusaha menonjolkan diri.
16. Mempercakapkan kejujuran, kecerdasan, kecakapan atau gengsi jabatan diri sendiri.
17. Merasa malu atas kekurangan diri sendiri.